Heavy Light: A Journey Through Madness, Mania and Healing

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Clare is fearless in his analysis of himself, the effect his condition had on him personally and also those around him who loved and cared about him throughout. The writing was almost bleak in its honesty, raw in its sincerity and brutally self-effacing. Clare's description of his "breakdown" or manic episode which resulted in him being Sectioned under the Mental Health Act is heartbreakingly authentic and I feel his bravery in exposing not only his experience but that of his wife/his children/his friends/his family.

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The best balance came in the interview with the social worker and the nurse. I was interested though that he didn’t choose to approach the inpatient psychiatrist. It rather gave the impression that all psychiatrists are interested in his prescribing medication which felt extremely unfair as that is a profound misrepresentation. Psychotherapy originated amongst psychiatrists and is a crucial part of their training.

I thought that most of this book was astounding. I have never read a more enthralling and completely terrifying account of psychotic delusions. What is almost harder to bear, clearly for him, is the impact on his wife and family. His account of his treatment by psychiatrists is highly critical, while much more praise is given to others in mental health services and especially the police. He is also interesting how his class and education help him elude services which probably wouldn’t happen for others. After a lifetime of ups and downs, Horatio Clare was committed to hospital under Section 2 of the Mental Health Act. Heavy Light is the story of a a journey through mania, psychosis and treatment in a psychiatric hospital, and onwards to release, recovery and healing.

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The album reaches its highest altitudes on “The Quiver to the Bomb,” a sweeping anthem about the birth of humanity and the environmental disaster that has followed. The pain you hear in Remy’s voice is drawn from the terror humanity has inflicted upon the earth. We are not just killing one another through our bottomless hunger for violence: we are mutilating our planet, too. “Accretion speaks louder than words,” she sings, flatly, banging the gavel on the trial of our species.One of the most brilliant travel writers of our day takes us us now to that most challenging country, severe mental illness; and does so with such wit, warmth, and humanity, that, better acquainted with its terrors, we may better face our own' Reverend Richard Coles This book starts of my the first few chapters describing the inside of Horatio’s head when he’s in the throes of madness. It that way, it was very chaotic and surprising. The next part described his time on the ward and the last bit was a mixture of his personal recovery and treatment plan as well as a dive into the current systems and thinking in mental health care today. So this book was both personal and factually informative. It certainly gave me new ideas and perspectives on mental well-being. And the author’s stake in his own care gave this book a personal touch. This is a striking book: the title, the cover, and the intensity of the first part of the book which embeds the reader in Horatio Clare's experience of mania. That was a difficult read, it was overwhelming: "Give us a break" I thought... but that's the point, he didn't get a break, he largely didn't recognise the need for a break and he conveys all this so effectively. To the reader, privy to his thoughts, he is clearly 'mad' but as is clear from the account and his much later discussions with those involved, he was also skilled at withholding all his perceptions from others. But eventually his admission to hospital is legally compelled. Whereupon it appears medication (or was it something else?) pretty much immediately removes all the delusions (other, arguably, than that he is perfectly fine) During the later section of the book where he rightly questions many of our models and practices, he doesn't seem to reflect at all on this occurrence. Nor on his repeated assertion that he knows the triggers for his illness and 'just' needs to avoid them... but doesn't (and, I suspect, will not, consistently, for reasons it might have been interesting to explore) This is, soberingly, not his first memoir of emotional distress, dysfunction and mental ill health, nor, arguably, even his second.

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Oppenheimer: When is Oppenheimer streaming, Oppenheimer film length, expected DVD and BluRay release dateThe writing was good but at times, could be a little disjointed and harder to follow. Especially the first few chapters but that was the madness talking so I don’t think I should have expected different necessarily. Another gem read during 2020/ 21 - what an amazing read by one of the most eloquent authors I have encountered. A brilliant first person account of the experience of mania with psychosis - if you want to know how it feels then this is the book to read. I noticed some criticism about the author's privilege but it can also be said that by having access to money, transport and connections further afield than home when in this mental state it can be possible to put onself in situations of greater risk to personal safety.

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Like 2018’s In a Poem Unlimited, Heavy Light is a sideways look at the history of pop music and the capitalist world in which it thrives. What’s different here is how it sounds, and how it feels. These songs capture the watershed moment when your throat closes up, your head cools off, and your tears run dry: It is when you enter what can only be described as a zone of weightless grief. It’s dense, heady, hard to grasp, but that’s what makes her music so rich. Remy casts herself as a pop star and reflects on the traumas of childhood and earth through parables and the music we grew up on. What to say? The description of this mans “ journey into madness” is so real it’s amazing. Written so well. Partly a tribute to those who looked after Horatio, from family and friends to strangers and professionals, and partly an investigation into how we understand and treat acute crises of mental health, Heavy Light 's beauty, power and compassion illuminate a fundamental part of human experience. It asks urgent questions about mental health that affect each and every one of us. It's no wonder that Clare is especially skeptical of prescription drugs as a treatment for people suffering mental health issues. Side effects from these drugs can leave a patient reeling and getting off the drugs can be just as dangerous as the manic episode for which they were prescribed. Clare's distrust of the drugs prescribed is so great that he decides to wean himself off his drugs without telling his partner, who is understandably terrified he'll start having delusions if he stops taking the drugs. Happily, Clare does not relapse, but he attributes this to keeping his stress low, avoiding pot and alcohol, and meeting with a therapist. He points out that many people do not have the resources and support network that he has. They can't spend money on a therapist and so languish on waiting lists. He believes more government resources need to be earmarked for mental health and social support, but sadly, that doesn't look like it will happen. One section I found very interesting involves Yasmin Ishaq from the Kent Open Dialogue Service. She discusses how the language we use to talk about patients is important - for example, referring to them as 'non compliant' or 'not having insight' can be damaging and dehumanising. She uses a therapy based on dialog with the patient and trials seem to indicate it could have positive results and be much cheaper than traditional methods for treating mental health issues.

To details in the depth he has detailed of his own personal experiences of the highs and lows of bipolar is something unique. But to then go on to detail his own journey of healing and recovery and to then question why it is not more widely available for others is inspirational. I thought this was a brilliant description of what it’s like to be in the throes of mania and psychosis and I really appreciated his brave honesty. It was interesting to contrast how much was going on under the surface with how much he let on to the people around him. Many people make time to talk with him when asked afterwards about his experience, their involvement in it, or with our approach more generally to mental illness - from the Chief Superintendent of police in the area and NHS management, to those trialling new strategies or critiquing old ones, to a ward nurse and the social worker who effected his section. It was particularly interesting to hear of his interactions with Andrea Jenkyns MP which provide a distinctly mixed picture of political involvement in the mental health arena. Although it is an account from his perspective, he does show how difficult it is for friends and family... I thought it was telling how his partner Rebecca only learns much later of some of the things he has done (about which he says very little overall). I was particularly interested in the experiences of his stepson, and his stepson's father...contrasting perhaps with the simpler experience of his six year old son. He doesn't quite talk of the 'positives' or things about himself which might be attractive but I wondered about his partner's acquisition of a husky puppy (a puppy! a husky!) whilst he is in hospital and they seem destined to cement their separation, and later their cosy evening routine involving a glass of red wine.... but she is adamant that there is no negotiation on him continuing to take medication. There really is a bravery in writing about a total breakdown of the senses and mental processes that make us who we are in our lived experience. It is such an unusual ordeal for most of us to comprehend, that shifting of reality and otherness of existing.